HOW CAN YOU BLAME ME FOR THE ASHES YOU MADE?

HOW CAN YOU BLAME ME FOR THE ASHES YOU MADE?


 I was a massacre, in a vulnerable state, 

lost and crawling towards my wit's end.

Deceived, I opened the window as I saw a light coming. 

I deliberately cuddled thinking it was a ray of sunshine. 

At last, a heat embraced my cold room. 


In an instance, I felt the familiar warmth, 

the warmth I've been longing to feel for a long time.  

It's comforting. 


Gradually, the warmth was getting hotter. 

The feeling was just ecstatic- that I've never experienced before.

Then suddenly, the heat turned to a burning sensation 

Little did I know, it was actually me who was burning, 

(perhaps burning for you?) 


Still unsettled for that ecstasy, I disregarded the pain. 

I allowed it thinking we're vibing.

I thought a little sacrifice would not cost me 

until such time, the pain became more and more unbearable. 


One moment I realized parts of me were turning into ashes. 

I tried to release myself but to no avail. 

You were magnetic. 

I succumb feeling my own end


I strived to condemn you, but you were remorseless. 

Instead of empathy you showed me a broken mirror invoking "the blame is on me." 

I saw how a mess I was.


Got no one else to pass the guilt, 

I owned it like it was me who massacred myself. 

You made me think it was a suicide.


Reminiscing, is it really me? 

Is it right to own ALL the blame? 

Remember, you came to me as fire.  

How can you blame me for the ashes you made me? 


My truth remains that you deceived me,

you deceived me into thinking you're a sunshine 

but in reality, you're actually a burning spear. 

A fiery spear so lonely, miserable and angry that you needed some others to feel 

the same misery with you.

Sadly, it just so happens that I was flammable at the time, and I am dumb.  

I allowed myself to be the object.


Well to be fair, I am at fault too. 

And after all, it was me who opened the window 

so how can I blame the wind ALONE for the mess it made? 



#fiction #freeverse 

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